The Waterfall

 The clouds above release all the tears of God both happy and sad

His plans are to nourish, those who thirst for the living water

In my prayer I say, "use me Lord" but never had I suspected this

I am the waterfall, with lush green organisms living in and around me

Running water that overflows in abundance

Ready to pour into others that long for God's love.  He assured me that this is how I was made

There is no mistake he said, "but you must learn to listen" you are using the gift all wrong

I must first go to him to get my soul filled with His love, instruction, peace and assignment

This will tell me who to give, when to give, and how to give according to God

It is only then the Waterfall of Love will flow free to those who need to quench their thirst

Kiss of Life

As I sit and listen to Sade's song, "The Kiss Of Life," I think of you.
Longing for your lips to touch mine
Your arms around my waist during that time
While my heart beats fast, around your shoulders, my arms are clasped
As I come up for air, I deeply exhale, As if, I had been holding my breath for years

Don't get it twisted, I ain't buggin' just want your luvin'!  LOL
There is so much passion inside, I am compelled to physically display,  my heart aflame

When our hearts, minds, and bodies are intertwined together there is nothing better
Sade, was on to something, I now understand her song Kiss of Life, now that i'm your wife

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I LOVE YOU ENOUGH

 I Love you, I want you and I need you too

I Love you enough to listen intently to the patterns of your breath while you are sleeping

I Want you enough that even when I on't hear from you, I turn a blind eye to others that stand at the gate and knock

I Need you enough to communicate my honest heart's desire hoping you will cherish and care for me as I do for you.

I Love, I Want and I Need You

Countertransference

Countertransference

As I look into your eyes
It's  as if they are large magnetic pools pulling me in
I'm certain you've always made this part of your secret weapon
I know this is a danger zone and I need to break away
I was frozen in that moment, it was hard to look away

Your warm and earnest demeanor really invites you in
To gaze upon your person and listen to every whim
I know this is a danger zone and I need  to  break  away
I was frozen in that moment, it was hard to look away

Your smile is infectious as you focus on my words
I love this attention, though my thoughts of you are absurd
To bask  in your countenance knowing it's too long
Is a typical countertransference, which means I am wrong

The end  of 2019 is soon  approaching, and  as I sit here in reflection of my time spent  with you, this is what crossed my mind.

Cool crisp air,
Followed by the visible white breathe from the panting of my mouth.
Before me is  an unstable pathway, covered in  leaves hiding the rocks and jagged ground
I teeter upon the wet bark, and tree stumps, where the trees are completely surrounding me
As you lead the way,  willingly I follow, because...
I now see, Love is blind.

This is dedicated to "Bear"

That's What Love Can Do

As I listen to, That's What Love Can Do," by Robin Thicke, I immediately  think of you, my Babe.

I began to smile and think Yes, I am happier today in this relationship than any other, but as I continued to listen to the song my heart began shift.

Robin's song says, "When the morning comes, I see your eyes and feel the Sun, I know I'm where I belong."  Well we are miles apart and no I don't  see your eyes in the morning.  So I ask myself, am I where I belong?

Then the Spirit reminded me God is with us in the morning, in the noon day and night.

He orchestrated our meeting, our compatibility, and this distance.  He fills those moments when loneliness sets in. He fills me up so that I can love you and He does that for you so you can reciprocate that same love.
In the word's  of Robin, "you may not know until you grow, who you are or what you know "

I lean back and again I smile, thinking yes this is where I belong.

That's why God is Love and appropriate to give him the praise because that's what Love can do.

Something New

God has allowed me to experience someone new
He is easy in his conversation, understanding and his  being
He is similar to myself in so many ways
I often look for the shoe to drop any day

God has allowed me to experience someone new
His physicality and stature isn't all that matters
Though he is nice on the eyes, with his solid muscles and thighs
His smile lights up a room, as he stands strong, confident and wise

God  has allowed me to experience someone new
A man whose outer is tough, but soft on the inside
His intelligence and soft heart shows more than most
His passion to help others is definitely worth the boast

God has allowed me to experience someone new
Complementary, loves me unconditionally
He thinks I am a diamond, with many facets
So dynamic that he could blow a gasket

God has allowed  me to experience someone new
He considers me, allows room for my expression
God focused, and disciplined too
He is my bear, my panther, my boo

I POUR

As I connect with the human race with great joy and enthusiasm on my face I pour

The exchange of laughter, ideas and goals allows me to encourage, and I pour

Then comes disappointments, fears and doubt, and I pour

When the fog has lifted, obstacles sifted, I grab my cup

But wait, there is none for me, and no one left to hold  me up

This is a perpetual state of the giver, full of conflict, emptiness, and yet I pour

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You're In My Senses

When I hear your voice, my heart takes flight
When i see you, my dreams live in sight
When I taste you,  everything feels so right
When I smell you, i'm glued to you throughout the night
When I touch you, i want to hold on tight

You're in my senses

GETTING OVER YOU

So I realize this is not as easy as it seems, getting over you

On the  daily, my heart feigns, while getting over you

Agony when alone, but getting over you

Grinning' on the phone, still getting  over you

It's not as easy as it seems, while getting over you

A dozen times I say, "i'm over it",  getting  over you

Text and regrets, but getting over you

Why we still talking when getting over you

Longing for Love

Oh how I long to know the love you have for me

Someone that will cherish and usher me into your courts of praise and worship

We will worship and praise in your courts together

Our love will withstand all types of stormy weather

We will laugh, dance and even sing

A romance of fun and philosophical things

A person to stretch my consciousness

A mate that has my type of infectiousness

I am so grateful for the pieces, jagged not neat

I can’t wait for the puzzle to be complete

Life is a journey of joy and pain

It all leads to growth, and it’s not in vain

I will take every step eyes wide open and still sane
Enjoying the journey  along the way

As you give me grace I’ll give you praise

MUFASSA

I feel like i'm falling
Heart racing, anticipating, the very essence of your presence

Scared and afraid of my fate being with you
Going insane like jumping out a plane
Knowing my suit has no parachute

There are so many things against WE
I'm trying to not think so hard and just be
But I think we lied to ourselves from the start
Love making and hearts aching will connect the mind to the heart

So we stopped, opened our eyes and smelled the morning air
Denying our flesh, giving it a rest to see if we really care
As the dear panted for the water, we now thirst for Jesus and keep him near
Things are becoming sadly and abundantly more clear

You are in one stage of life and i'm in another
You've got a child to raise, and i'm trying to be a run-away mother.
My child is grown, and it's time for him to be on his own
You need someone who can help you build a home

Besides, these are really all excuses, let me be real with you
I've got some soul searching, life living, giving to myself too do
This is the year to leap, run to your new beginning
Take a chance and you might find you're winning

Thanks Mufasa, hmmm let me say it again
For loving me unconditionally healing my pain and strife
I have nothing but love for you always for the rest of my life

Peace

God thank you for your love, grace and peace
You have kept me through hurt, heartache and happiness
I know I fall short, forgive me for my sins
Thank you for saving me Jesus, by your stripes I am healed

I don't have to die to be at peace
I will live my life to the fullest and glorify you in it
Hallelujah and Praise You!  I am living!

Now on to championing my fears
Then I will really be at peace
I know they will always be there
However, it's time to stretch, leap and trust you

Peace.

I Pity

How many times have I sacrificed out of Pity?
I'm certain more times than many
I won't be left with this agony on my face
Where I jumped in and rescued despite my positioned place
People I cannot fix, save or change
I will obey God and stay in my lane
How many times have I sacrificed out of Pity?
More that I can count and that was too many

Single, Yet Not Free

There are ties too be severed
A wife and baby mamma seems to rid you never
I'm kissing you, you kissing me
Here we sit single, yet not free

Like Chinese Moo shu, add pork as your meat
You have yet to be loved from your head to your feet
My desire is to give you what you have longed for
To embrace you, taste you until you want no more
I'm kissing you, you kissing me
Here we sit single, yet not free

Despite our flesh and all it desires
It is God's unmerited favor that we aspire
Oh so close we fall from grace
Hoping to never lose our place
I'm kissing you, you kissing me
Here we sit single, yet not free

This like continues to grow fond of you greatly
While my mind objects and guards me safely
Looking for things to tare us a part
From the first kiss, you've had my heart
I'm kissing you, you kissing me
Here we sit single, yet not free

Just Friends Dilemma

We listen and encourage each other almost everyday

We laugh out loud at everything no matter what we say

We had so much fun at dinner the other night

Is our minds, hearts and feelings in a conflicted fight

Because you were not emotionally available

You were not what I'm supposed to like 

Over time, in no uncertain terms

You Told me I wasn't your type.

Here we are, enjoying each others company 

Learning and liking the time we spend

Is it me, oblivious or are we

Just friends til' the end

BEING HONEST

I've never made a decision for me. 

It was always easier, to just let things be.
I never thought you could love me, because I wasn't your type. 

So I convinced myself that friendship is what you'd liked. 

I ignored my feelings because that's what I do                                
Easier to believe loss than living could be true.
      
I saw a movie that left me teary-eyed.
Because it was then I saw my life realized.
I decided you should know how I feel,
And take a chance believing that this love could be real          

So tell me I'm not alone and not out of my mind,                              
Since I'm finally being honest, for the very first time.

Vulnerable

I'm sitting her thinking about my life; not my past, not my future but my right now and I'm afraid! I've tried to maintain happiness in my situation instead of going after things in life that make me feel accomplished, productive and meaningful.

So the question I ask myself is, "do you change your position or someone else?" Anxiety has stricken my heart, and naturally I turn to the Lord.

God, i'm such a fraud, I mean well, but i've not been honest with myself which means I'm not honest with others nor you! I've got to change my outlook of my past, my future and my right now.

I need you Lord to come in and renew a right spirit within me and give me a sound mind. I feel so vulnerable right now, not knowing what awaits my future. I didn't know I had a fear of failing. As I expose the inner most parts of me to you Lord, I'm asking to be renewed, transformed and diligent. Cleanse me of all unrighteousness, purify me and wash me clean.

Real Friends

Because we're friends You're not droppin' lines Instead your makin' me laugh all the dang time

As I reflect on this I wrote a poetic rhyme, which describes a friendship of this kind

It's new and developing into more of the same
Sharing God's love and encouragement, not these single games

It's fun and transparent, at least on my part, full of honesty, goodwill straight from the heart

Playa, because I know your type,  I'm praying for you because you know you ain't right

It's just a man and a woman Siblings in Christ

Lifting each other up to shine their light bright

If I haven't told you to stop waiting and just begin

I say wait not for tomorrow,  let your light shine now while the gifts are still within

This is just me smelling the roses.