Peace

God thank you for your love, grace and peace
You have kept me through hurt, heartache and happiness
I know I fall short, forgive me for my sins
Thank you for saving me Jesus, by your stripes I am healed

I don't have to die to be at peace
I will live my life to the fullest and glorify you in it
Hallelujah and Praise You!  I am living!

Now on to championing my fears
Then I will really be at peace
I know they will always be there
However, it's time to stretch, leap and trust you

Peace.

I Pity

How many times have I sacrificed out of Pity?
I'm certain more times than many
I won't be left with this agony on my face
Where I jumped in and rescued despite my positioned place
People I cannot fix, save or change
I will obey God and stay in my lane
How many times have I sacrificed out of Pity?
More that I can count and that was too many

Single, Yet Not Free

There are ties too be severed
A wife and baby mamma seems to rid you never
I'm kissing you, you kissing me
Here we sit single, yet not free

Like Chinese Moo shu, add pork as your meat
You have yet to be loved from your head to your feet
My desire is to give you what you have longed for
To embrace you, taste you until you want no more
I'm kissing you, you kissing me
Here we sit single, yet not free

Despite our flesh and all it desires
It is God's unmerited favor that we aspire
Oh so close we fall from grace
Hoping to never lose our place
I'm kissing you, you kissing me
Here we sit single, yet not free

This like continues to grow fond of you greatly
While my mind objects and guards me safely
Looking for things to tare us a part
From the first kiss, you've had my heart
I'm kissing you, you kissing me
Here we sit single, yet not free

Just Friends Dilemma

We listen and encourage each other almost everyday

We laugh out loud at everything no matter what we say

We had so much fun at dinner the other night

Is our minds, hearts and feelings in a conflicted fight

Because you were not emotionally available

You were not what I'm supposed to like 

Over time, in no uncertain terms

You Told me I wasn't your type.

Here we are, enjoying each others company 

Learning and liking the time we spend

Is it me, oblivious or are we

Just friends til' the end

BEING HONEST

I've never made a decision for me. 

It was always easier, to just let things be.
I never thought you could love me, because I wasn't your type. 

So I convinced myself that friendship is what you'd liked. 

I ignored my feelings because that's what I do                                
Easier to believe loss than living could be true.
      
I saw a movie that left me teary-eyed.
Because it was then I saw my life realized.
I decided you should know how I feel,
And take a chance believing that this love could be real          

So tell me I'm not alone and not out of my mind,                              
Since I'm finally being honest, for the very first time.

Vulnerable

I'm sitting her thinking about my life; not my past, not my future but my right now and I'm afraid! I've tried to maintain happiness in my situation instead of going after things in life that make me feel accomplished, productive and meaningful.

So the question I ask myself is, "do you change your position or someone else?" Anxiety has stricken my heart, and naturally I turn to the Lord.

God, i'm such a fraud, I mean well, but i've not been honest with myself which means I'm not honest with others nor you! I've got to change my outlook of my past, my future and my right now.

I need you Lord to come in and renew a right spirit within me and give me a sound mind. I feel so vulnerable right now, not knowing what awaits my future. I didn't know I had a fear of failing. As I expose the inner most parts of me to you Lord, I'm asking to be renewed, transformed and diligent. Cleanse me of all unrighteousness, purify me and wash me clean.