MOST OF MY LIFE

Bless you oh God! Thank you Jesus! For you have healed and saved me! I love you l Lord! Thank You! Thank You! For healing my land.

Most of my life
I have been afraid

Most of my life
I have been mislaid

Most of my life
I have been mistreated

Most of my life
I have been fondled in secret

Most of my life
I’ve been groped, and tainted

Most of my life
Permanent scars have been painted

Most of my life
I have been compromised

Most of my life
I have hidden behind these eyes

I have allowed my soul to be captive by
Hurt, fear and shame leaving me to cry

Most of my life
I have created idols to hang on too

Most of my life
I’ve been here waiting, waiting for you

Most of my life
I have given you praise
Without looking for you too change my ways

In Psalms 139 you said that, “you are with me”
And most of my life
I didn’t believe thee

You said, “I’m not an idol” that’s satan’s dirty game
Idols don’t PROTECT! But bring hurt, fear and shame

All this time Lord, I’ve been a self destroyer
Most of my life I have slept with Hurt, fear and shame
Yes in that order
Well hell it’s time to fight and lay down some borders

Forgive me Lord it was all I knew to do
I am going to start today learning to trust you